I have had dissertation tutorials and one to ones, I have found this most confusing to be honest and have found I am questioning the subject matter of my dissertation. I find that my way of working and thinking must be based in the practical as, if not, I seem to have no reference point and get lost in my own thoughts and feelings.
As I was speaking to Clive Cazauxe about research, he suggested that i may be suited with my subject ideas to his knowledge as i have some understanding in philosophy. This is true in part as I have had experience for many years as a counsellor and outreach worker, working with complex human issues such as drugs , alcohol, eating disorders and many other emotional and physical states of being, then going on to outreach and accredited Young People (YP) with disaffected conditions or lifestyles. This work i was very happy in and found key points which seem to go across the board with work I am doing now, these are: i have an empathy with YP and other people who are in a state of change or have a desire to change and like to enable and facilitate that state of being, often using first hand knowledge and reflection to support and empower these transformations. To start a conversation which may inform and inspire, as we all have passion and it is just finding were it resides within us which is the key to a happy and successful life, one with quality. That often when transformation happens it is an opportunity to embrace new and directions and abilities. Part of my interest extents to death and whether life can be extended through inanimate objects and do objects hold more than just memory, do our bodes have memory beyond our minds? I feel they do, I also feel we can have a resonance of ourselves and that is why Egyptians made pyramids and used death as a way of transportation from the material to the afterlife and the spiritual. They saw the two worlds connected and I also see this connection, not in the same way but in a way that if we are remembered and loved by those alive and kept in a positive way as ashes etc we may continue to have that life in the hearts of those we have loved, who knows how this may progress. This all feels like it is relevant to my work and is interlinked by myself as a natural state of me which I reflect in my work, I still have many questions to answer and work to do. Looking at these subjects is helping me define what I will be looking at in my dissertation and research into my thoughts , ideas and questions and previous knowledge will inform and direct me.
I have now, through many hours of thought and reflection, realised that I would be best served looking at disability, ability and how this is portrayed in many ways art forms and socially, how it is perceived in social and clinical models and also looking from a personal and person centred way. As a result of this reflection I have decided that my original tutee Ashley Morgan was suited to my need more as a dissertation tutor and that maybe I complicated confused the situation by changing to Clive suddenly.
I intend to seek research to see if there are measurable outcomes to learn from on how physical interaction with making and doing reflects on disability. Disability and identity are far more relevant a subject with strong written academic research base and images to which are seen daily.